Monday, August 02, 2004

our wedding anniversary
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yay! finally...

i started this blog back in may when i was feeling very lousy about the relationship... uncertain whether we'd even make it in spite of having booked the dinner location for the singapore wedding dinner. there were so many arguments and so many signs pointing to a breakup... i didn't even feel like looking at our website. in fact looking at it made me even more certain that i should have seen the arguments coming because for one, nothing had been done to the website since march.

in the recent couple of weeks, i've seen wen do more for the site than anything he has done since finding out about the dinner confirmation in may (and there was alot he could have done at that point already in terms of updating the site). he's found code for making our site more sophisticated. for example the ideal guestbook i showed wen eons and eons ago was the one from mona and raven's now-defunct website. i had very clear ideas after all my research on wedding sites and in the last few days, i'm actually beginning to see a clearer picture of what i had pictured of our site. plus of cos the blogging function... that's probably the best part. having my own custom blog with categorization and password protection free!

thinking about our site and the lack of progress for the longest time always brings to mind wen's main passion for many years. and of cos his lousy ass friend... i've always admired how wen is able to sum up a person pretty quickly... but in this case, i guess he somehow just refused to believe that his judgement of this one person was not only inaccurate but a terrible drain on him. or maybe underneath it, he knew that he'd judged this friend wrongly but he was still holding onto some hope. or maybe i am just fated to go thru crap like this in my serious relationships... where there's always this bad friend who wants to influence my guy against me. with tony, it was marvyn... thank god for jasper who valiantly offered to sit on him. it was probably the sweetest thing a guy could have done for me then. =)

maybe that's why i dislike cats. i've had one too many experience of my guy being influenced by his friend. unconditional devotion and love is more important to me than a pet who decides how much affection it can take for the day. who cares if it's smart enough that i have to earn its respect before it will love me. isn't that what we have to do in life with almost all our human relationships? if i have to do that with my pet, at least let me do it in the SIMS game... where I can still switch off the cat, i mean pc.

i miss spikey... and dexter going psychotic on a rainy day does not make it any better.